Witnessed something quite terrible recently. But really, I asked myself why do I care so much for someone who is not related to me? I felt quite frustrated that she was so unappreciative and she even had the thinking that whatever well-meant advices were actually STUPID. Seriously, I don't regret because I know that I had done my best for us and I acknowledged that there is a limit to what I can do for others. Sometimes the most effective way to learn, is through the hard way. You will wake up only at the last moment.

I have been thinking a lot about raising children recently. In the past, what I thought of children was that they were so adorable and innocent. They still are, to a certain extent. But I think I have a wider perspective of seeing kids now. Like what if your kids take up the wrong path (become drug addicts)..mix with bad company..rebellious..talk back..dont give a damn about their future..seek alot of attention..has very poor health, etc. The worse is, when you fail to teach your own kids well. It's quite demoralizing, I feel. It affected me to the extent that I almost gave up the idea of having kids in future. Haha!! I guess I really take it too hard. Parents may play a large role in the upbringing of children, but there's 30-40% where it depends on the child's own will and the surroundings. Of course, there is alot more to learn on this topic. And I still have time for that.

What I dont have time for, is to attend a few language courses, go for yoga/pilates/dance classes, travel around the world, meet up with my cousins and play with my cute little nephews & nieces (they are gonna forget me soon. sob!), take up cooking class & music lessons, etc. Sometimes, time passes so fast. Other times, so slow!!!

The past few days I had 2 similar nightmares: my hamsters died! Oh man. When it happened the first time, I was crying so hard in the dream and I could still rem after I woke up. I hate to have such nightmares!!! Luckily it was just nightmare and not for real.