40 more days to a BRAND new year -> 2011.

Cant wait becos a new year = changes = more exciting!!! Haha..plus, I'm totally stressed out abt my upcoming exams. So I really look forward to next year.

Quite excited..a little bit nervous too. And scared. Ahahaha..so many feelings all at once!

Hope I'll realize a few of my dreams/wishes next year. Hee..shall not reveal here. Up til now, I think 2010 has been a 'quite-bad' year for me. The prev year wasnt as bad =( I was really lucky to realize part of my dream to travel around the world in 2010 though. I dont foresee myself travelling next year, which is rather depressing. Haha! Oh well, there's always another time :)

3 of our 11 beloved 'babies' died respectively in Sep, Oct & Nov. :'( I miss them. And I hope they have met in heaven. How I wish our 'babies' can live longer. 2-3 years is too short!!

Been trying hard to stay happy & think positively. Went through some bad experiences and events. I've paid a price for learning lessons in life. Disappointments seem to be common in my dictionary right now. But the thing is, should I even have expectations of them in the first place??? I felt even sadder when I'm already disappointed with someone, and I see that another person (I cared alot) is also disappointed at that someone. I wanted to help, but what can I do?? I feel helpless when logic and reason doesnt work out with some ppl. I wonder if anyone has felt the same way as me..that if everybody is selfish, at the end of the day no one will benefit from it. Oh well, certain things really cant be forced. Either accept or give up.

The "heck care attitude in life" applies successfully only for certain things, definitely not everything!

My sec sch teacher once said this, "I will not ask you to respect me. Instead, I will earn your respect." Thinking back about what he has said, I agree to the fullest extent with his statement. Indeed, respect is to be earned. I think a common misconception is that ppl associate respect with authority & seniority. You might disagree with me. And you can disagree with me. But pls understand that everyone is entitled to their opinions, whether or not they are right. RESPECT is still a very profound subject for many..

It's over! Had a very blessed birthday with wishes from family, friends, classmates.. =) Thank you!


Just booked 2 important dates- 13th & 14th Dec 2010. (Mon & Tues) I cant wait to get over it!!! It's really over..(fun)..oh well, haiz. At least I had a few unforgettable travelling memories this year. But human is greedy. We are hardly satisfied. Hiak hiak =X I wish I can travel alone with my love. I wish I can go on another trip soon..Eyeing HK, Taiwan, Japan, China @_@ It's ok to dream tho. As long as I can afford to.

There are a few things that I really want to accomplish. But hmm..there's such thing called Opportunity Cost, which I have to bear in mind. Oh well, same old thing; Prioritize, prioritize, prioritize!

Suddenly, 2011 seems like a better year. More exciting! ;)

不管是人或物，感情变了。。就是变了。要拿得起，放得下，才可以萧洒和快乐的活着。

Altho this is easily said than carried out, I still believe in it. Sometimes, letting go is a way of loving yourself and others.

Must be happy. Must love yourself. Then you can love others and make them happy.

고맙습니다 Terima Kasih 谢谢 Thank you to..

all who wished me the last few days,

who celeb with me,

who are gonna celeb with me &

who helped me get to where I am today.


Thank you so much! Love, JM.

Witnessed something quite terrible recently. But really, I asked myself why do I care so much for someone who is not related to me? I felt quite frustrated that she was so unappreciative and she even had the thinking that whatever well-meant advices were actually STUPID. Seriously, I don't regret because I know that I had done my best for us and I acknowledged that there is a limit to what I can do for others. Sometimes the most effective way to learn, is through the hard way. You will wake up only at the last moment.

I have been thinking a lot about raising children recently. In the past, what I thought of children was that they were so adorable and innocent. They still are, to a certain extent. But I think I have a wider perspective of seeing kids now. Like what if your kids take up the wrong path (become drug addicts)..mix with bad company..rebellious..talk back..dont give a damn about their future..seek alot of attention..has very poor health, etc. The worse is, when you fail to teach your own kids well. It's quite demoralizing, I feel. It affected me to the extent that I almost gave up the idea of having kids in future. Haha!! I guess I really take it too hard. Parents may play a large role in the upbringing of children, but there's 30-40% where it depends on the child's own will and the surroundings. Of course, there is alot more to learn on this topic. And I still have time for that.

What I dont have time for, is to attend a few language courses, go for yoga/pilates/dance classes, travel around the world, meet up with my cousins and play with my cute little nephews & nieces (they are gonna forget me soon. sob!), take up cooking class & music lessons, etc. Sometimes, time passes so fast. Other times, so slow!!!

The past few days I had 2 similar nightmares: my hamsters died! Oh man. When it happened the first time, I was crying so hard in the dream and I could still rem after I woke up. I hate to have such nightmares!!! Luckily it was just nightmare and not for real.

In a few hours' time, it will be 1st September 2010. Happy Teacher's Day to all the kind and patient teachers in the world! :)

My favourite month is coming! I'm both excited and happy. It's an extremely busy month for me. Gonna be alot of meet-ups too.

Sidetrack abit, I sort of came up with my own quote which I like alot; " to get angry with a fool is to become a fool myself too." So when you come across someone who purposely spike u for no reason/weird reason, think of the quote I came up with. The best is, to smile and just ignore the person for he/she doesn't deserve more attention than required.

My schedule for Sept..(busy busy busy!):

4th Sept (Sat): Mel
5th Sept (Sun): SW
8th Sept to 12 Sept: AWAY
15th Sept (Wed): Ling?
17th Sept (Fri): BH
18th Sept (Sat): Clare../Yan..
25th Sept (Sat): Dentist/Rian../Ris

That's all I can think of now. Hope I didnt miss out any date(s).

That day I saw my friend posted this on FB-


'some people has nothing better to do than to make life difficult for others!'


Have you met someone like the above mentioned? Or are you one of them?? If you belong to the latter, come..come and give me your extra time!!

Life is short. Don't make it shorter, ok?

It's time to stop dreaming and start living! -Adelia Liang-

Determined to reach my 2 other goals in life asap! Planning, planned and now it's time to execute THE PLANS! =D

Thinking of bringing family to HK/China/Taiwan next year. Hmm..CIP = Consideration In Progress.

Clare & Rian are very sweet to me. Appreciate their efforts put into my big day's planning. It's not just the presents they are gonna get for me but the thoughts that count. I am contented knowing that someone rem my big day. =) I am really lucky that the upcoming trip is not gonna clash with my big day!

Just for info:
My unavailable dates for Sep'10-

5th (Sun) to 12th (Sun)
17th (Fri) to 18th (Sat)
25th (Sat)

Today (or rather yesterday-Saturday) is a painful day for me. I had it tighten and I did waxing for legs at Far East for the first time. Pain pain pain! Of cos, heartache oso cos of my cash that went with it.

Bought an expensive mask at Etude too. It's a special medicated mask for acne. $5.90 for one. It's considered expensive becos the masks that I usually buy, will not cost so much for just one sheet. Actually face masks can be DIY too. Just that, I'm too lazy to do that =P

Had an enjoyable day; bowling with friends, buying pretty $10 bags and eating food which costs less than $10. =)

Made a decision to change my foundation from liquid to powder soon. Hopefully my skin can adapt to the change. But the headache question will be, which BRAND? Hmm..

I miss putting on makeup regularly. Haiz..I cant really explain what happened to me. But it's very bad. ALOT of people have been commenting. Some even commented more than once. I know how bad it is, dont have to remind me CONSTANTLY. Gosh, u guys are worse than my grandmother leh. Lolx..I make it sound super bad. And when u look at my pics, u will wonder 'what the hell is she talking abt'? Hmmm..haha! Makeup is gd for covering flaws. But when makeup cant do the tricks, it's time to see doc/drink more water/haf more rest. I really admire those who makeup every single day yet no flaw on the face. Maybe it's time to change my cleanser brand and makeup remover.

I love to travel and it is my dream to travel around the world before I die. I am always so fascinated by the difference in culture, surroundings, scenery, weather, etc. There was a point where I dreamed of making travel a living but it's not possible now. Travelling leisurely might be even better, if you think positively. I went to temple to pray, wish hard on my last bday to have the chance to travel more frequently in this year. It came true!! I am happy and I feel blessed. =) It feels gd to have your dream slowly come true. At first I thought I was influenced by my eldest cousin, who is so passionate about travelling.

But happy things aside, December is coming soon. -.-'' I dread!

My iQQU acne serum has arrived! I really hope it works. And fast! Dont know the reason for sudden outbreak. =S Haiz..nightmare of every girls. At times I wonder if BDD will mind. Oh well, pray hard my skin will be back to normal soon.

Honestly I hate to say this but I do feel *erhem* old sometimes. I was looking at an ex-classmate's pics of RWS and theme park. Reminds me of the previous time I went to a theme park, which is in Korea. Surprisingly, I dont feel as 'high' as I thought I wld be. I still had fun though. Just that, I knew it will be very different if I had went there a few years earlier. Or perhaps, I shld say that my interests has shifted. Lolx. Denial. Whatever!

Funny! I'm starting to feel abit 'bu she de' to leave Singapore for my long-awaited/well-deserved holidays. I thought of our cute hamsters and my grandma. Didnt feel this way before. I wonder why.

Speaking of my upcoming holidays, I'm also very excited and nervous!!! I had waited for the chance to go Aussie for a long long time. =) I thought that my chance will come only when my cousin get married. I've been reading up on the Aussie travel guide, researching online and talking to people staying/living there. Other than the reason that it is a totally new & foreign place to me, the next reason for my excitement is cos...finally, I will get to have my FIRST SQ (A380) flight experience. Singapore Airlines is famous for their good service (maybe in flights but not so for their call centre.) Maybe I was unlucky on that day la..to be served by this particular Customer Service Officer. Shall not go into details about that.

After holidays, it will be back to 'reality' again. More serious work & goals to achieve. For now, it's HOLIDAY MOOD.

Tired of the same blogskin so I decided to change. It’s more colourful, isn’t it? To reflect the many new excitement & adventures coming up soon! :D

2 more days and another half a year will be officially gone! Fast? Time seems to fly when you are busy or when you are having the time of your life. I really like 2nd half of the year more. I’m glad things are turning out more smoothly. My illness is 99% gone. Yay! But I still need to control on my food diet la. Zzzzz..who says skinny people can eat all they want?

My 7 little babies (hamsters) turned one just a few day ago. =D I think they know that it’s their birthday too. They were looking at their birthday cake lor! So cute..these little ones.
Anyway, just celebrated 10 years of friendship with Shiwei. We had an unforgettable day (& night) together. Too lazy to re-post pics.

Yaber daber dooo~

Feeling unwell for the past few days. Dont know if it's the weather or too much wrong food/lack of water or just, overly stressed out. Haha~

Praying hard for this month to be over soon. I've always love the second half of the year. Many many upcoming birthdays aka meeting up with friends & cousins, exciting events happening (last year I travelled quite abit) and my favourite occasions.

I wish I will get well asap. =( I miss fried food. Ahahahaha..and CHILLI CRABS! ;)







*ps - i haf a feeling i will blog more often, esp during this mth. bleah =P

Hi it's me again!! Haha..surprised? I feel like talking but no one is there to listen to me. And the main point is, I have a bad sore throat now so I also cant talk much =( That's for eating too much fried chicken and not drinking enough of H2O. -.-'' I love fried chicken so much but I have to control myself before problems start arising.

Recently I had a little 'vow' thing; to quit eating MacD & Kentucky for 3 months. Just slightly less than 2 weeks later, I ate MacD alrdy. -.-'' But I'm still holding strong, on quitting Kentucky. Muahaha..jia you!!

Wanted to do some painting tonight. Somehow, laziness sets in. Hee! I want to paint but I think it's a hassle to wash my brushes & palette (tonight). I look forward to the day that I can paint pictures/landscapes like those in the art books. =D

Went to my cousin's house yesterday. I feel so _ _ _. HAHA!!! (Trying VERY HARD to tell myself that I'm not as *TOOTTTT* as I feel. My nephews & niece (baby Ris is not included in this playgroup yet) are super active. Seeing them play reminds me of the times when I used to play with my younger cousins. No worries, fun, laughter and the best of all, time seemed to pass very very slowly then. They resemble my cousins so much!! Kinda scary, yet so cute at the same time. =) I'm really hoping next time, my daughter(s) will look more like me and son(s) looking more like my husband. Then it would be soooo cute when the whole family go out together, taking family picture, etc. Haha..back to present. Darren is a very quiet boy but he likes to move around alot! He kept going to the kitchen to look for his grandma (my auntie) who was cooking then. And no matter how hard I try to coax him out to the living room, he refused to budge. So when I carried him, he wasnt very happy la. Baby Ris couldnt recognise me (so sadddd!!!). She looked at me for some time and then just burst out crying. -.-'' Broke my heart, that little one. I have to see her and Darren more often so that they will know me. Haha..Amber grew taller, skinnier & prettier. Too bad I didnt take pics with them. I bought 2 thick fables book for them. Wanted to read out for them but I was worried they wouldnt 'give me face'. Haha..nvm la. Let them read it on their own. The books are quite good. Each has 52 short stories and there's a lesson for the children to learn for every story. (Eg. morale of the story is, not to be greedy...) I'm quite paiseh to say I didnt buy anything for my elder nephews because I cant think of anything to buy!! They are in Sec sch already. And they are boys. Difficult to buy stuff leh! Last time, (before Baby Ris is born) I used to buy more stuff for Amber, than other kids. Then sometimes BDD accompanied me..and he commented that I seem to favor girls more than boys. Girls mah..easier to buy. All the cute & sweet stuff. Pink & ribbons! Cheaper compared to the boys' stuff. Omg..I better stop before I sound like a mother-to-be. -.-'' I'm too YOUNG to be promoted. Hahahahahha...Y-O-U-N-G. Crazy!

My friend has just decided to go Sydney with her bf. Awww..when will it be my turn?

Not feeling well..better go to bed soon. Nitey!

I just realized, I have known Wei wei for 10 years already. So fast~~ Yan has surpassed dat 10th year lever longgggg ago. Haha..nope, not trying to say I'm old. Altho I admit, I dont feel as young as my real age. Bleah =P

We've just decided to celeb our 10th yr anniversary. Tentatively will be ard end of this mth. =) Will post pics then.

Learning to cope with the increased amt of stress. Luckily, my next big break is coming soon. =) Altho I have been taking a 'break' for quite awhile alrdy..I shall punish myself by taking more papers in the next sem. I am quite eager to learn new things, but I cant concentrate with my studies still on the line.

I'm hoping we'll go somewhere that I like. Maybe Korea again? Hong Kong, Australia, both I dont mind. Let's see whether it will come true. Hopefully it's not just hear-say again.

I really love to travel; to see the outside world, experience difference cultures & observe different kinds of people. But, I also just realized I dislike the packing and un-packing part. Haha..I confess that the idea of making travelling as my job, do pop up in my mind once in awhile. But that's not gonna to happen for now.

Had a small argument just a few days ago wif BDD..(dont worry we both recovered on the same day..haha!) It's more realistic and hmm..I dont know how to put it in words. Just that, a r/s which is often smooth-sailing ought to be more worrying than one that has occasional hiccups, isnt it? And I've actually learnt sth from this argument. Sth good of cos. I'm happy to be with him. =D

Life is not always smooth sailing. You cannot control the type of people you meet, nor the totally preventing difficulties to appear in your life. But you can control your own emotions and the way you handle situations.

To those unlucky ones who had a bad day or met with bad people (beech or jherk)...

the sky will not be always so gloomy. Wait patiently for the sun and the blue sky! :)

Looking forward to my next planned trip! It's still so far awayyyy..driving me crazy soon.

Setting my eyes on Japan as my next next target. It'll be very romantic to see their snow with my beloved, isnt it? =)

Watched 'Clash of the Titans'. Man, Sam Worthington is my new beloved male celebrity. He has such good looks with the perfect body structure. This is the highest compliment I've ever given to any guy. (Of cos my BDD is irreplaceable!)

Yesterday I dreamt that I had KFC! Hahahaha..dunno why I have this dream when I just had it for lunch last week.

Gosh, feeling older than I should now. Maybe I should do more 'young' things. Haha..

Been feeling v down. Sianz...

Everytime I think or talk abt it, tears just couldnt stop flowing. When will be the day that my tears will all be used up??? Heartwrenching kind of pain..no wonder my tolerance level of pain is becoming higher.

V emotionally attached to alot of things leh. It's quite ridiculous. Maybe someone will have the same kind of feelings as me?? Will u not bear to part with your teeth? I'm still ok with hair..since I'm almost always a short-hair person from young. But teeth..oh man. Better not go into it. Lolx!

Some might have noticed the change in my relationship status. At first I was quite hesitant about showing it cos I dont really wish to be bombarded with questions. Haha..but when I saw the replies on BDD's side, I felt quite happy~ Despite that the replies were more for him. A little note- we havent sign anything yet so both of us still can change our minds..hahahaha. JOKING LAR! Another little note- no proposal yet..so DONT ASK ME LIAO HAR. Hahaha..

I have a friend whom has been feeling super down in the recent months. Dont know how to help her. I think she has depression. Her father has passed away when she was young and now, her mum is gonna abandon her and her younger brother. I heard that she has been crying alot and even had suicidal thoughts!! How can?? I can never understand why a parent would want to desert the kid if the parent CHOSE to gave this kid life in the first place..maybe that's the same logic behind why people strongly discourage abortions.

I cant help thinking that love comes with pain. BGR love, family love, friendship love, etc..which kind of love will bring about the most painful feeling to you? Hmm..

FLOWERS from your BF always beat anything else. :D



I thought the shark fin will come in a small pot!! This is too much for 2 persons but we managed to finish it anyway.


I think we are one of those rare couples who dont celebrate on actual Valentine's day. Maybe cos we had spent too many Valentine's as singles. Hahaha..

The feeling of having ur dreams come true is soooo gd. I'm definitely going back to Korea. =)




** sidetrack**

Witness some relationships which didnt stand the test of time, and of cos a few that did. It is, in some ways, unpredictable. Especially when the feelings faded or are no longer there. There is no right or wrong (if handled properly). Who is to blame? The one who initiate the breakup? The one who bian xing? The one with the many flaws? Unconditional love..how many of us can do it? If one day your bf/gf doesnt love u anyway, will u still love ur bf/gf? There is a girlfriend whom stay by her bf for many many years even tho there is no promises/plans. The willingness to stay on when there could be uncertainties. It could also be due to her understanding for her bf. Some things, dont have to say it out. Only those involved needs to know.

It is important to know that all of us have our own happiness. There is no need to be envious or jealous about.

And it is always easy to judge others, esp their relationships. But are we in the position to judge? We are not dang shi ren. We wont know how the feeling is like when we are in their position.

Here on CNY's eve, I wish that everyone will have a happy relationship with almost everybody that they meet. Parents, siblings, friends, boy/girlfriends, spouses, etc.

I love this picture alot! Well-taken. Haha..