Adelia

40 more days to a BRAND new year -> 2011.

Cant wait becos a new year = changes = more exciting!!! Haha..plus, I'm totally stressed out abt my upcoming exams. So I really look forward to next year.

Quite excited..a little bit nervous too. And scared. Ahahaha..so many feelings all at once!

Hope I'll realize a few of my dreams/wishes next year. Hee..shall not reveal here. Up til now, I think 2010 has been a 'quite-bad' year for me. The prev year wasnt as bad =( I was really lucky to realize part of my dream to travel around the world in 2010 though. I dont foresee myself travelling next year, which is rather depressing. Haha! Oh well, there's always another time :)

3 of our 11 beloved 'babies' died respectively in Sep, Oct & Nov. :'( I miss them. And I hope they have met in heaven. How I wish our 'babies' can live longer. 2-3 years is too short!!

Been trying hard to stay happy & think positively. Went through some bad experiences and events. I've paid a price for learning lessons in life. Disappointments seem to be common in my dictionary right now. But the thing is, should I even have expectations of them in the first place??? I felt even sadder when I'm already disappointed with someone, and I see that another person (I cared alot) is also disappointed at that someone. I wanted to help, but what can I do?? I feel helpless when logic and reason doesnt work out with some ppl. I wonder if anyone has felt the same way as me..that if everybody is selfish, at the end of the day no one will benefit from it. Oh well, certain things really cant be forced. Either accept or give up.

The "heck care attitude in life" applies successfully only for certain things, definitely not everything!

My sec sch teacher once said this, "I will not ask you to respect me. Instead, I will earn your respect." Thinking back about what he has said, I agree to the fullest extent with his statement. Indeed, respect is to be earned. I think a common misconception is that ppl associate respect with authority & seniority. You might disagree with me. And you can disagree with me. But pls understand that everyone is entitled to their opinions, whether or not they are right. RESPECT is still a very profound subject for many..